Discussion in 'Free Range' started by CoolWife, Mar 12, 2014.
Today is my first day, and my patient just delivered!
Well I was due to start back at work from maternity leave on Monday. And in the last few days another job opportunity landed in my lap, so I followed up on it in case it would be a good fit. Within 3.5 hours this afternoon, I had an interview, got a job offer, negotiated it, had references checked, accepted the offer, and quit the job I’m supposed to start on Monday. Holy shit, what a crazy week (and afternoon today especially) it has been. But I’ll be starting a new job in the next week or two, so that’s exciting and scary all at once! It’s a good fit and I think the right decision for me and my family right now. Celebrating with a drink tonight but I am mentally and emotionally exhausted lol.
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Just finished a year end review with one of my employees and he was telling me that he was talking with his brother recently how he always used to dread year end reviews because it was always just his manager regurgitating whatever he wrote in his self evaluations and it was a waste of time. But now he looks forward to them because I always put time and thought into it and add things he doesn't even think about or doesn't think about the same way. He expressed how nice it is to hear the feedback and the things he wouldn't consider as going "above and beyond" the confines of his job. (Above and beyond is the term we use in our review ratings scale for better than a meets)
I've really been struggling (in general) lately and with writing the reviews because of some process changes I don't agree with that make it harder for me to acknowledge my employees work in the review process so it made me cry. It's been a month so I really needed that.
Just embarrassed myself announcing my patient is at 8cm when she's only 6cm. It's not a huge difference except it kinda is.
Have I told y'all how soft and mushy everything can be in there?? Yeah.
Just went to double click something in an IM to highlight it so I could copy the number and got another IM so I managed to accidentally angry react to the message.
Trying to flip to nights and Kit is waiting up with me. If that doesn’t tell me that this dog, who tries to herd me to bed at her preferred time of 8:30, loves me, then the gentle head on my leg would.
I've been kinda quiet, but work is killing my soul. My preceptor is so knowledgeable and can be a good teacher, but she's also subtly mean, impatient, and a micromanager. I love what I'm doing and learning, but she makes me feel like a failure every. single. shift. A big part of why is because she's been doing this for decades, and I think she's forgotten what it feels like to be new.
She's on vacation, so I'm with someone else for a few days. Yesterday was so amazing that I'm tearing up just thinking of it.
I’m sorry work is sucking so much. The right manager/trainer/coworkers definitely makes a huge difference.
I’m glad you had a good few days, but sorry the other lady is a bully. I get that people can get short when under pressure, but there’s no need to be mean.
My co-worker’s husband died last night. He had been battling cancer for the past year. I’m so sad for her. She was my rock my first year teaching. I would not have survived without her. I texted her to let her know I’m here if she needs anything but I know she’s probably so overwhelmed right now that she doesn’t have the energy to deal with people. I know someone is setting up something for donations/food. This just really sucks. I thought 2021 was supposed to be better.
That's terrible @virgo . I hope they had time at the end for their goodbyes at least.
Way less important...
It's just a truism that I'm gonna fuck up my hardest when I'm with people I need/want to be competent in front of like my preceptor. She was gone for 4 shifts, and the unit manager noted that I "seemed to really blossom" in that time. Meanwhile this morning has been a Benny Hill special. FML.
Oh and I muttered mostly to myself but in front of the charge nurse that I always screw up in front of my preceptor. Naturally, she then told my preceptor that I said she flusters me. I mean...yes, but I didn't say those words. Preceptor then lectured me about giving excuses for my mistakes. Goddamn it! Yes ma'am, head down and keep pushing forward.
Ugh Lh, the preceptor sounds awful. The charge nurse should’ve kept her mouth shut.
My poor patient has been here for almost 48hrs not really progressing through an induction that wasn't really necessary, and I have a feeling she's going to end up in a csection in the middle of the night anyway. I'm irritated as hell at her OB for scheduling her on a weekend that he isn't on call for and at his partner who is acting like dilating TWO WHOLE CENTIMETERS in the past 12hrs is okay just because he's too fucking lazy to call it in the last night of his stint as attending.
It’s a fact that all unplanned sections are in the middle of the night.
In a shock move, he came back from where ever he was and is going to section her ASAP. I hate that it didn't go the way she wanted, but I'm so happy she finally gets to meet her baby boy!!
I am shook. Lol. 3:18am and 2:35am for my boys.
So my fuck up...
Patient is okay and has been since that morning. Managers are concerned that even if L&D is a good fit that I have to switch preceptors. Okay, fine. Even if I am not a good fit, they think I'm a great postpartum nurse, so I'll always have a home there.
As much as I hate failing out, I'm just so relieved that no harm came to the patient or the baby. I'd take being fired if somehow that balanced it out in the universe.
You are a wonderful nurse @Lh718. I think just reading your posts shows how much you care, and that changing preceptors would really help you feel more empowered and confident. And also - you are still a human being who makes mistakes. Your patient is ok. Say that to yourself over and over again. You are a good, kind, caring nurse and that’s what every patient wants
I agree with Mega 100%.
Just got the call, and I'm going back to postpartum. Fine, better than getting fired. It still hurts a hell of a lot though, and part of me is pissed because maybe I would have thrived with a diff preceptor. Oh well. I'll have my cry and power through.
You’ll have a different preceptor though right? The one you’ve had sucks.
Sorry @Lh718. I’m sure it’s better for now but that sucks. Your career isn’t over! Keep kicking ass in PP and it doesn’t have to be the rest of your life.
No preceptor since I'm going back to my old unit. I'm focusing on positives like being on my own again, going back to friends, and getting more baby snuggles.
You are still allowed to be upset, even if there are some positives about going back to PP. Cry if you need to! As CW said, it doesn’t have to be forever. And they kinda set you up to fail with that preceptor, so this isn’t all on you either.
As someone who has been a patient having a baby twice, I had great nurses in both L+D and PP, but it was the PP nurses who really made the difference. I could never say enough thanks for the amount of support they provide when you are hormonal and exhausted and swollen and bleeding and sore. And with a crying baby who won’t latch and is jaundiced and breathing too fast. Truly angels, all of you.