I’ve been think about buying a light therapy lamp for years, and finally did this year. I haven’t been super consistent with it so far, but I do like it when I use it. I think I’ll be able to use it daily easier once I’m back to work (at home, it’s looking like) and the kids are in dayhome.
Man, poor rooster. I’ve been such a mood-swingy pouty weepy mess. Then I eat and feel better but ashamed of my previous behavior.
These are weird and difficult times ON TOP OF the darkness of less sun ON TOP OF growing a human being and all the fuckery on your body that entails. Rooster is a big boy and just needs to keep his big boy briefs unwadded @Afishwish . That's all a lot, and you're doing great!
I'm crashing and can't seem to get control. I keep just not having time to cope and take care of myself before something else requires my attention. It's beginning to really show; people at work keep asking if I'm okay.
I’m sorry, lh. It has been so hard for you and other front-line workers this last year. I hope you can get a break from everything soon
I’m putting this here for anyone who needs it, but @Lh718, please give Brené Brown’s talk about her “gap plan” a listen here: https://brenebrown.com/podcast/brene-on-comparative-suffering-the-50-50-myth-and-settling-the-ball/ It’s good advice for when your emotional energy is depleted, you’re running on empty, and you need to regroup. I thought about this a lot over the winter while I was in a really depressive cycle. It helped me to identify and develop some healthy energy-restoring behaviors. She talks about it specifically within relationships or families, but I think it applies to individuals too.
I finally believe this is happening, and I wanted to share. I'm starting in-home, oral ketamine treatments next week! My depression has been either barely in control or completely uncontrolled, and I cannot really tell which option is true. I've been trying to get on a ketamine study or with a ketamine therapist for 8 years now. Hopefully it works. I don't even care as much about not being sad. I just want to be able to function at a higher level in terms of exhaustion and motivation.
Idk where else to put this... Out of nowhere, just woke up with a metric ton of self hate and zero confidence. Of course that translated to a shit day at work. I'm home trying not to buy a billion worthless things or eat all the food in the house.
Today is the one year anniversary of my friend’s friend dying in a horrible way and I’m sad for her and that the world has hardly changed.
Sucky day, friend. It’s my mom’s birthday too. I wanted to do something with my sister to honor Mom, but Sister is working out of town. Dogsitting her monsters is a shitty consolation prize.